If You Want Me To...

The only way that I can think to describe the last few months is “hard”. I know, it’s such a broad term, but it’s also so true. Don’t get me wrong, I can see ways that God has blessed and taken care of me, but life’s been far from smooth. It’s been downright rough at times. And as the end of the year comes closer, things seem to be piling up. I don’t know what I’m going to do next year. I want to continue with my education, however, I’m knot sure that I will be able to at this time. Please don’t think that I’m giving up if I take another year off, but know that I would only be doing what I believe is necessary. I ask that whatever I choice, please respect my choice and let it be just that, my choice. I’m also struggling with my lack of transportation at this time and so I ask that you keep me in your prayers concerning that as well.

Through the hard times and the struggles though, I friend of mine reminded me of a song that I actually love but had forgotten about. The words are as follows:

The pathway is broken And the signs are unclear And I don’t know the reason why you brought me here But just because You love me the way that You do I will go through the valley If You want me to
Now I'm not who I was When I took my first step And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet So if all of these trials bring me closer to You I will go through the fire If You want me to
It may not be the way I would have chosen When you lead me through a world that's not my own But You never said it would be easy You only said I'll never go alone
So when the whole world turns against me And I'm all by myself And I can't hear You answer my cries for help I'll remember the suffering Your love put You through And I will go through the valley If You want me to. ~Ginny Owens, "If You Want Me To"

The words of this song have applied to my life more than once and they do again. Please keep me in your prayers as I figure out the future. Thank you to all who have helped to make this year easier. I don’t know what I’d do without you. :)