Who I Am Today

There's a saying that you don't know what you have until it's gone. Those that know me know that contentment doesn't come easy to me. However, I got thinking about this phrase recently as I reflected back on some things in my life. I'll be the first to admit that I've had a pretty wonderful life. Things have always had a way of working out quite well. No, they don't always come in the time that I would like them to, however, I've never really lacked anything. And until this point in my life, I've never had the difficulty of searching for a job and coming up empty handed over and over. I've also had jobs in the past that I haven't really enjoyed at the time. And of course, being me, my solution was to move on and try something different. Now, I don't think that there is anything wrong with trying new things (I'm a big fan of that) but I do think that I too often don't appreciate what I have while I have it. While I haven't always liked the jobs that I've had in the past, I've had some pretty good ones. So at this "almost jobless" time in my life, I've had time to reflect on the past and appreciate what I've had. I just wish that I would have had that appreciation at the time. But as Anne of Green Gables said, "Tomorrow's a new day with no mistakes in it yet" and now that I've learned that, I can put it into practice.

I also wonder about God's timing a lot. It seems that His timing is never ours. I'm one to always be making plans and thinking about how I think things should work out, but then they never seem to happen the way that I plan. And then things will come along in life and I'll think "If only that had come along a little sooner" or "I never thought I needed that to happen". But think about your life. Think about all the things that have happened to you, both the good and the bad. Think about all the things that if you could go back and change, you would. And then think about how they have made you who your are today. It amazes me that God can and does take both the good and the bad in our lives and uses them for His honor and glory if we let Him. And those things that happen that aren't necessarily bad but we think we could have lived without, tend to most powerfully influence our personality and character - for the good or the bad.

These are just some thoughts that have been on my mind lately and I felt compelled to share. Things here are going pretty well. Still only working part-time. I'm exploring the possibilities that will get me a car so that I can hopefully expand my job search a bit more. It's been quite cold the last few days and feeling more like Fall and Winter.