For those that read this blog on any kind of a "faithful" basis and especially those that have read since the beginning (or if you're related to me), you know that it has taken me a long time to find contentment. It has come though but it was a long and sometimes painful process getting there. I've learned that contentment doesn't depend on where you are, but on what you do with what you have been given, whether great or small.
Now I know that some of you will see the title of this entry and immediately think, "Here she goes again. She's get her bags half packed and is ready to roll". Let me assure you that that is not the case. I've just been doing a lot of thinking lately and the title seemed appropriate.
This month will mark two years that I've lived in South Carolina. Wow! Where did those two years go? And it's funny because when I moved here I came with the intent to stay two years and then most likely move on. Perhaps that has been part of what has sparked my mentality as of late. I've found myself.... reflective. I'm young and free and hardly settled down and I love it that way. Besides it leaves the doors of possibilities wide open. But there are things that "tie me down" in a sense - debt, lack of a finished education, work - so I am always brought back to "what am I going to do in life?" "Where do I go from here?" I have plans, it's just finding a way to execute those plans. That's where my mind tends to work overtime. It has been lately.
And along my journey I have met people and been places that I truly miss and sometimes think I would like to return to.
I've also learned not to analyze every thought and move in great detail. God's will is not limited and He can certainly use me wherever I am. Sometimes I'm not allowing Him to use me and that's something He's been showing me too.
So along with learning about truly being content, I've come to the realization that I will probably always be ready to "hit the road" at anytime. That's just who I am. For me, the "call of the open road" is forever present. But not in a discontent way. In a way that calls me to the adventure that lies in the unknown. I will probably always wander to some degree but "I'm young and I love to be young. I'm free and I love to be free". :)
Now I know that some of you will see the title of this entry and immediately think, "Here she goes again. She's get her bags half packed and is ready to roll". Let me assure you that that is not the case. I've just been doing a lot of thinking lately and the title seemed appropriate.
This month will mark two years that I've lived in South Carolina. Wow! Where did those two years go? And it's funny because when I moved here I came with the intent to stay two years and then most likely move on. Perhaps that has been part of what has sparked my mentality as of late. I've found myself.... reflective. I'm young and free and hardly settled down and I love it that way. Besides it leaves the doors of possibilities wide open. But there are things that "tie me down" in a sense - debt, lack of a finished education, work - so I am always brought back to "what am I going to do in life?" "Where do I go from here?" I have plans, it's just finding a way to execute those plans. That's where my mind tends to work overtime. It has been lately.
And along my journey I have met people and been places that I truly miss and sometimes think I would like to return to.
I've also learned not to analyze every thought and move in great detail. God's will is not limited and He can certainly use me wherever I am. Sometimes I'm not allowing Him to use me and that's something He's been showing me too.
So along with learning about truly being content, I've come to the realization that I will probably always be ready to "hit the road" at anytime. That's just who I am. For me, the "call of the open road" is forever present. But not in a discontent way. In a way that calls me to the adventure that lies in the unknown. I will probably always wander to some degree but "I'm young and I love to be young. I'm free and I love to be free". :)
3 comments:
Hey mel . . . not gonna lie, sometimes I feel like you describe my thoughts better than I do.
Life is a highway... :) great thoughts, Mel!
Hey Melena,
I love the way you wrote that. I'm in the same boat as you and it's so true that it's a daily trusting the Lord in each step (even though it's almost impossible most times) and then enjoying whatever comes your way.
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