Here's a "not-so-secret": contrary to the title of this blog, sometimes I feel lost! I have never felt more lost than I have the last 3 or 4 months. I've felt like a fish out of water. A square peg in a round hole. I've been really frustrated.
I had in my head that this was going to be a year of figuring things out. Of finding my place. My sweet spot. And it still may be, but I'm not an overly patient person and so I've been a little anxious about... life. I've worried and stressed and lost a lot of sleep over trying to "figure things out". And I've been reminded at how bad I am at living in the present. I keep waiting for my life to start and forgetting that I'm already living life. And I need to start paying more attention to what is going on around me and actively trying to be more present. I have a lot of things to work on.
I am ready to find a job that I love and doesn't feel like work and I am ready to be somewhere and doing something that makes me feel alive!
I've also decided that I'm not really a big fan of road-trips by myself anymore. I get really tired of driving around the country alone. It's boring. And lonely.
Those are my Tuesday thoughts.
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