I'm about to be pretty transparent here, something that I usually stay away from in the blogging world. I tend to write from a more symbolic point of view. But today, I need to be open. Why? Because, if everybody has a story, you can't really tell yours if you're hiding behind allegories.
Sometimes I feel like the "odd one out" in the family. Don't tune me out here thinking that this is a ploy to get some sympathy from everyone. Quite the contrary, I assure you. And allow me to get something straight as well. I have an amazing and loving family. They truly are the best. That being said, here's what I mean. If you know me, have read any of my past posts or just paid attention to the title "Wandering But Not Lost" you know that I am far from having my life "figured out" (by some standards). But I've always been one to challenge the status quo. I refuse to settle for something that is less than I know I can be. I also refuse to settle for what would be a boring life for me. I am not going to finish school until I know that I am on a path that I truly want to be on. I'm not afraid to move on from one thing to another fairly quickly. Some might say I have trouble being content or have ADD, I prefer to think that all that I am learning is just making me a more well-rounded individual. :)
This morning as I was watching CBS Sunday Morning, Steve Hartman did another "Everybody Has A Story". I love that segment. Because it's true. If you take the time to get to know people and listen to what they have to say, you will find that they have a story and it probably has some striking similarities to your own. And I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that I think somewhere deep inside all of us is the desire for people to know our story. I have heard some people say that they sometimes think of their life playing out as a movie. I usually think of mine as more of a documentary. And then I think about what might be said about me. It's not as though I live a tremendously exciting life. But I live. And I make decisions just like everyone else and those decisions will affect the rest of my life in some way, shape or form at some point. And I may not be where I want to be in life right now, but I can change that. I can see what I am capable of and where I can go.
I want to work with people. Hurting people. I am about to venture out on a path that will hopefully lead to something in that area in the future. I see people all around that need physical help, spiritual help and most of all love and my heart breaks. I am hoping to eventual work in a humanitarian aid area. If you've talked to me in the last month, you probably know that I wanted to be in Haiti from day one. But that is not a possibility for me at this moment. I'm hoping to change that though so that when things like that happen, I can go. I am here for a greater purpose than myself.
Sometimes it's good to stop and think, "If I died today, what would people say about me? What would they remember?" And if it's not what you want it to be, do something about that before it's too late. When I think of my life and where I am and where I can be, I don't get bogged down by the fact that I'm not there, I am just inspired to change.
Sometimes I feel like the "odd one out" in the family. Don't tune me out here thinking that this is a ploy to get some sympathy from everyone. Quite the contrary, I assure you. And allow me to get something straight as well. I have an amazing and loving family. They truly are the best. That being said, here's what I mean. If you know me, have read any of my past posts or just paid attention to the title "Wandering But Not Lost" you know that I am far from having my life "figured out" (by some standards). But I've always been one to challenge the status quo. I refuse to settle for something that is less than I know I can be. I also refuse to settle for what would be a boring life for me. I am not going to finish school until I know that I am on a path that I truly want to be on. I'm not afraid to move on from one thing to another fairly quickly. Some might say I have trouble being content or have ADD, I prefer to think that all that I am learning is just making me a more well-rounded individual. :)
This morning as I was watching CBS Sunday Morning, Steve Hartman did another "Everybody Has A Story". I love that segment. Because it's true. If you take the time to get to know people and listen to what they have to say, you will find that they have a story and it probably has some striking similarities to your own. And I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that I think somewhere deep inside all of us is the desire for people to know our story. I have heard some people say that they sometimes think of their life playing out as a movie. I usually think of mine as more of a documentary. And then I think about what might be said about me. It's not as though I live a tremendously exciting life. But I live. And I make decisions just like everyone else and those decisions will affect the rest of my life in some way, shape or form at some point. And I may not be where I want to be in life right now, but I can change that. I can see what I am capable of and where I can go.
I want to work with people. Hurting people. I am about to venture out on a path that will hopefully lead to something in that area in the future. I see people all around that need physical help, spiritual help and most of all love and my heart breaks. I am hoping to eventual work in a humanitarian aid area. If you've talked to me in the last month, you probably know that I wanted to be in Haiti from day one. But that is not a possibility for me at this moment. I'm hoping to change that though so that when things like that happen, I can go. I am here for a greater purpose than myself.
Sometimes it's good to stop and think, "If I died today, what would people say about me? What would they remember?" And if it's not what you want it to be, do something about that before it's too late. When I think of my life and where I am and where I can be, I don't get bogged down by the fact that I'm not there, I am just inspired to change.
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