I recently had a bit of a turning point. I realized how "comfortable" I had become in my relationship with God - basically to the point where I was not growing or learning. I went back and forth with the Father about this for a while until I became tired of arguing the point and gave in to what I knew was the right thing to do. I was reading through some old journal entries over the past couple of years and I came across one where a friend had challenged me to ask God to teach me something new. Bit of a scary thing to pray, huh? But that was where God got me. I had been trying for a while to get my relationship back on track by reading random bits of Scripture or devotional books but the desire to really change was not there and I had to come to a breaking point first. I knew that asking God to teach me something new would mean that I would be stretched and things will get uncomfortable, but without that there wouldn't be growth and the change that I so desperately needed.
The last couple of weeks have had some not-so-great moments, some disappointments and some definite lows. I've been challenged in different ways and forced to face who I really am and see how far I have to go to be who I want to be. And so far, most of these things have been very small in comparison to what they could be but I find that it's the small things that often show us what we're made. How do we handle the little disappointments and upsets? And if we can't get through the little things, how on earth do we ever get through the big things? And in a more Spiritual sense, I believe that it's the little things that help us gain the ultimate victory. Satan knows that if he can get us in those small areas of life, those "minor sins", then he's got us. We've given him all the leverage he needs to get in and keep us from being all that our Father desires us to be.
And I have found that when I accept the things I can't not change and look at them from the perspective of everything happens for a reason (God is not a God of coincidences), then I begin to learn. And sometimes - often actually - my timing and God's are not the same at all. And when things don't happens when and how I want them to, I get frustrated. Then I remember, I prayed for change.
The last couple of weeks have had some not-so-great moments, some disappointments and some definite lows. I've been challenged in different ways and forced to face who I really am and see how far I have to go to be who I want to be. And so far, most of these things have been very small in comparison to what they could be but I find that it's the small things that often show us what we're made. How do we handle the little disappointments and upsets? And if we can't get through the little things, how on earth do we ever get through the big things? And in a more Spiritual sense, I believe that it's the little things that help us gain the ultimate victory. Satan knows that if he can get us in those small areas of life, those "minor sins", then he's got us. We've given him all the leverage he needs to get in and keep us from being all that our Father desires us to be.
And I have found that when I accept the things I can't not change and look at them from the perspective of everything happens for a reason (God is not a God of coincidences), then I begin to learn. And sometimes - often actually - my timing and God's are not the same at all. And when things don't happens when and how I want them to, I get frustrated. Then I remember, I prayed for change.
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